as the title suggested, i'm confused. i don't get life. peoples opinions,judgements. constantly pulling others apart.
why can't i lose this anxiety? why does it persist? it's followed me around for so long. with know let up. everyday. i know that it's not rational. it crawls over me. covers me. i feel like i have an enormous amount of anxiety to lose. like if someone weighed twenty stones, and wanted to be ten. i seem to have that much anxiety and i need to lose it. as with weight im not going to lose it over night. to keep chipping away at it, annoy it. i've tried in the past. perhaps not hard enough.
i wish i could put it somewhere and leave it be. not go back for it for awhile. abandon anxiety.