30; i have a poopy old blog. i dont know my java script from my html. give me a seam riper, or a pair of double ended needles and i know what your talking about. i wish i could adorn the pages with clever pieces of loveliness, wonderful script, but i cant (please dont say there is no such word as cant, because there is! so there).
31; fed uppy, im fed up of reading others blogs. others lives, they live in beautiful cream walled houses with antique furniture, nice kitchens, pretty little osh kosh kids, cutsie dogs. have gorgeous holiday snaps of sandy beaches, warm seascapes.
32; seeing people wander in the snow. crisp white snow, crunchy beneath their little wellingtons, laughing, throwing snowballs, wrapped up, warm on walks out. and theres me trying to be pushed in a wheelchair, when that fails im pulled backwards, yes backwards because the poxy slegdge on wheels wont go forward!
33; bloody memory is terrible, i cant even remember if i have already gone from 30-40, so if someone would be as kind to inform me i will entitle this 40-50. i walk into a room and forget why im there, and when you have limited energy and standing time then you get angry with yourself.
34; i look forward each day to a warm bath. lots of bubbles. yet warm isnt good enough for me, oh no, lets have it hot,hot,hot. then thats starts the tachycardia off, boom boom boom goes my chest, stand up woozy goes my head, blackness descends. at least my bones feel good, even if my heart doesnt.
35; nhs. no more needs to be said.
36; doctors, dont trust a doctor that smiles. big mistake. my neuro, was po-faced, with a far away gaze ( i know that gaze, the barristers would wear the same look when they were so busy with interesting cases), yet he helped me no-end, especially confirming i had p.o.t.s. now the smiley little bugger of a consultant, well he was sarcasm personified.
37; i have a whole bunch of goods to put on e-bay i think i procrastinate because im worried that i will do something wrong, make a mistake, so the easy way forward is too leave the goods all in my draw. any tips on selling would be welcome.
38; twiglets, im addicted.
39; if youve got this far you must like me. i want to be liked!!!
40; end of miserable post, i promise when the snow has lifted i will be in a better mood
p.s, ive added the picture to the header which looks dumb to me, how do you make the area smaller with picture. i know it can be done as ive seen it on other blogs. thick old me cant do it. any answers would be welcome.