thinking this morning how the snow represents how i feel. i can't get out today, snowed in. and if i did go out and got stuck then i couldn't get back. thats how panic makes me feel. like its snowing all the time in my world. like theres danger and mayhem everyday. and normal peoples lives are like everyday, well normal days. they can move freely, without much worry. and i have the constant fear that something will go wrong, if im out, or in. also with the added fear now that something is wrong with me. im not making much sense so i will leave it there.