i always, well most of the time edit my thoughts. ive been doing this since childhood. i sometimes put my foot in it, like people do. but because im sensitive i go over conversations in my head, wishing i hadnt said things. the other alternative, which i used to do as a child is to keep quiet and aquire the label, shy. i dont feel that way in my mind.
another thing when im in a group of people say five or more, even if they are family i tend to keep silent. perhaps if they arent the dominant type, then i feel free to speak and put my opinion across. i dont want to be like this, i dont want to watch what i say. or say nothing.
even posting on other sites, i have that creeping feeling. i go to type, and recoil. stop. what you say isnt interesting. no one will listen. this isnt self-pity its unfortunate fact. maybe being the youngest, sitting round the dining table i wouldnt get heard. so i wouldnt say much. a few friends that were bullies along the way, would say 'why did you say that'. self-confidence, what self-confidence.
yet when i meet the right people i click. i know that it doesnt matter what i say, its easy. i dont have that grin which oozes low self-esteem, and a nervous laugh. its just natural. the only remedy for me is not to think, just do. i need to practise this more. has anyone any more tips?.