had a headache yesterday, well for the past few days. although yesterday seemed worse, i didnt eat till evening. had a complan, strawberry flavoured. im a little determined now to put some weight on. in a world where everyone seems to be losing weight, its a strange feeling.
i was so used to seeing the scale go down, and getting a pleasure from that. ( although in the past few years i never weighed myself). it will be a funny feeling to see it go up. i can remember on millineum eve i was 7 stone 12. i was pleased. yet i am that today. and i want to go to 9 stone. i figure if m.e is about lack of energy, than what am i doing having around 600 cals a day to survive on, no wonder im knackered its not helping. i know this will be another challenge. and i know when the m.e symptoms call on me, that eating is a huge problem.
my dad is working in scotland at the moment. he went to visit holy island yesterday, and helped a man in his wheelchair get off the boat ( i assume it was a boat going to an island!) and dad said to him that i was in a wheelchair at the moment, due to m.e. the man said to my dad, 'get her to talk' i now a few people with m.e, just get her to talk.
ive always found deep meaningful conversations about me difficult. real revealing truths, so hard to speak. is this worth trying, i think so.
oh and anyone got any ideas with high fat)!) nutritious food i could try, it has to be pretty bland, no spices. thanks.