22 July 2009

15-1989.

15. in 1989. i got a few of my old diaries out. i stopped writing them a couple of years ago. due to lack of enthusiasm. this was the first one, i was 14/15, young and niave. i always tend to rush my writing, and would add words that didnt need to be there. its almost like a race to the end, so its finished and tied up. then i wouldnt check anything. i know when i started to blog i just typed and posted, i couldnt bare to look at the words i wrote. what does that say about me?

4 comments:

Ellen said...

Hi Alice,
Maybe a lack of belief in yourself? I sometimes post things and then am embarrassed to look at them, especially if they're about my personal feelings...

alice said...

hi ellen

i think you hit the nail on the head. personal feelings. looking back over my diaries, they are mostly about what i was doing, instead of how i was feelings. when i put down whats really happened feeling wise i could cringe. thanks.
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Nechtan said...

Hi Alice,

I think they are very interesting to look back on. I wish I had kept my own. Like yourself I never liked reading them back so I used to get to a stage where I would rip them all up and bin them. Now I wish I'd kept them.

Possibly when we are younger we have so much more to write about that are more important than how we are feeling. Definitely nowadays that is not the case with health problems, responsibilities and expectations.

All the best

Nechtan

alice said...

hi nechtan

i think also i was worried about someone finding it, and maybe mocking me for my feelings. its amazing if you dig a bit deeper, and with the help of others comments what you find out about yourself. thanks.
x