15. in 1989. i got a few of my old diaries out. i stopped writing them a couple of years ago. due to lack of enthusiasm. this was the first one, i was 14/15, young and niave. i always tend to rush my writing, and would add words that didnt need to be there. its almost like a race to the end, so its finished and tied up. then i wouldnt check anything. i know when i started to blog i just typed and posted, i couldnt bare to look at the words i wrote. what does that say about me?