sitting up in bed nearly 10pm feeling pretty, urgh. the weekend went well. i was as much myself as possible. i didnt strive to be a competent, able person. just me, at the moment was enough. it was nice to see my aunt. i think she enjoyed herself. in the evenings she sat in my room, one time it got quite crowded with my mum,sister,niece,aunt and me. i thought maybe i would get overwhelmed, as i would of a few years back. i didnt. i tried not to think about what if i did. and if i did i would of had to say i wanted some rest, which i was well prepared to do.
i know one night i felt a little out of breath. so i just lay there, trying not to focus on it. then when it passed i joined back in the conversation. it was a little tiring as we stopped speaking around 12 midnight. but overall an enjoyable weekend.
however, last night i had a troubling dream it went something like this.......
i was on a bus, and it was driving past my house, which i thought was odd as we dont live on a bus route. as the bus approached my house, there were men in the front garden with white overalls on. against the wall propped a yellow board. i knew someone had been killed in the house. i rung the bell on the bus and asked the driver to stop, which he did and i got off. i run to the front garden, scared, and asked the men what they were doing. they said someone had been murdered inside. i went in, apprehensive, but needing to know what was going on. the outside of the house and the garden was the same, yet the inside had a completely different layout, with different decoration. i ran upstairs into my bedroom, and the walls had been stripped bare, no carpet, no furniture. there was a man in a white overall, i said what had happened? he said a prostitute had been murdered in the room, look, and he pointed to blood splattered up the walls. then i heard kids outside, i went to the window and there was some boys on bike looking up at the window. i went downstairs and the house was crawling with police, they were looking for the knife.
when i woke this morning, i remembered past this point, yet now thats gone.
any point to this bizarre dream?