pretty little dog picture, that sweet face cheers me up no end.
anyway, what have i been up too. as you know the med bill has had a large chunk taken off of it, i have arranged now to pay the parents back the amount due next year. i have been able to go out shopping for Christmas presents something that i missed last year due to feeling ill, and not being able to walk further than a minute. so croydon has had a visit from me a few times, i have managed to buy some pretty sincere presents, due to the help that has been given to me by family members this year.
a weird thing i have noticed, usually talking anxiety here, standing in queues sometimes not all the times had me a buzzing, nervous, wanting to shoot, wreck. yet the few queues that i had been in sitting in the wheelie chair i was ok. mmmmmm. got me thinking back to when the clinician asked me to take my pulse standing still. well the beats would shoot up, so therefore bring on anxiety. now that im sitting my pulse remains normal. ive solved a problem. use a wheelchair!!!
i have an appointment with my first consultant on wednesday, only a twenty minute ride away however its at 9am, i wonder whether he will have any news, will he have the paperwork from kings college? we shall see.
i really dont know what i would of done without my mum,dad,sister, and not forgetting my sweet adorable niece this year. my 12 year old niece would sit and hold my hand, telling me that everything would be ok. my sister would trapse up to the hospital each day, and we would laugh at the stupidest things, my dad bless him would arrive, then take off on a marathon round the hospital any excuse to leave the room, i dont think he likes illness! and my mum sternly telling me over that things would be ok, that they would find out what was wrong. and the masonic lodge for paying the bill. im grateful. i really am.
and for you guys, the readers, that made me suggestions, picked up my spirits, gave me compliments. thanks for enduring my moan-fests, my bad spellings, ramblings, funny pictures, and thanks for writing your words. xxxxxxxxxxxx