be honest, am i somewhat square? whats the impression, anybody, who reads the words that i write, do i seem square and out of touch?
throughout my life ive seemed like the, well i wouldnt say nerdy kid, but somewhere along those lines. i was never miss perfect although i tried to be. i would come out of school with my hair dishevelled, inky hands, socks fallen down. i was never in the 'it' crowd, but never in the nerdy crowd. just average, plain, in the middle. and thats how i feel in my head.
i was always on the go, rushing around, finishing things, then thinking whats next on the agenda, before actually enjoying whats just passed. fast in speech, so that i would trip over my words. i even had a pink pair of national health specs, that i wore once at school, and never again. thats why i think ive put off wearing glasses for so long.
i feel intimidated by certain people. shy, but not in my head.
i hesitate before making decisions. sometimes i dont even choose, its easier to leave things well alone. mistakes i used to hate, until i had some therapy, and the therapist said, ' go make some mistakes'.
even posting on here, i rush through the words. make spelling errors, read the words over and correct them, not all of them though. i know in the beginning i wouldnt even read my work over, just let the words be incorrect, as i could feel the embarrassment rising looking at the page.
does anyone else feel like this or is it only me?